It has been years since I totally forgot the person whom my heart chosen to be its first love. I met someone recently, I was totally hooked into him because he is too kind and sincere plus he is also good looking. But what attracts me most is his intelligence. Cute and smart people (girl or boy) is my weakness, no question asked.
But unfortunately it wasn't love at all but an infatuation. Sad right? He is looking for someone and that's not me. I don't know if my heart hurts or just my ego. I don't know, it's the second time in my entire existence that I've shown interest to someone.
I want to fall in love once again it doesn't matter if it's an unrequited love. I don't even care if he doesn't like me back as long as he allows me to fall for him. I won't do things that he won't like. Watching him from a far is enough for me. I just want to feel the feeling once more.
I can feel this emptiness inside me. If ever I fall in love again, I will make sure to treasure the feeling. If I can save it in the USB, I will do it for sure. I want to experiencing the heart thumping and the butterflies in my tummy every time I am facing with him. I want to know the feeling of sitting beside him or as I look into his face. If it is possible to be love back, it would be nice but not really hoping. I also want to feel jealousy, I want to know how will I react. Although, I am afraid of pain. I still want to feel it (preparing myself ahead of time because I know my love won't be reciprocated). The flowing of the tears from my eyes.
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