For A Special Guy Like You-- HBTY

                                      "For The Birthday Boy Who Never Forget"

                      There's a saying that goes,
              you will never know who will                   
                  become your friends.
    Yes, I do believe in that. Who'd have thought that I will gain one of the best person one can ever have? I do have a lot of friends, some of them just come and go while others stay. And for me to have this special guy. It is really a blessing. Yep, he is a very special guy. He is unique, smart and strong... a real brave heart.

    When I first met him, in my eyes he is a shy boy. The first person who introduced me to him is our Filipino teacher Mrs. Sauro. We are inside the school's biology laboratory, not because we are having science activities or so. We are occupying the room for the school journalism writing contest. Yes, me and my kambal Ann Mae were forced to join the contest too. This guy and me were not classmates. We are in the same grade level, but he is in section A. The class for the fast learners. I belong to the other lower section back then.

    We often met out side the classroom but I can't remember if we were actually talking back then. We are considered as acquintances during that time. Not until I was transferred to Section A during my third year in high school. We became classmates. And not just classmates, we became friends. Then, I've just realize that this shy boy I used to know is not really that shy when it comes to friends. He laughs at silly jokes, he is really smart, he is someone whom you can asked help with. In short, he is really versatile.

    He is the first person aside off course from my kambal whom I've opened my first crush and love... hahaha, he knows everything. I can't hide from him. I can consider this guy as my guy bestfriend. You can tell him your problems and he will help you sort it out.

    He is someone you can really jam with. He knows about animes, this is our best topic before. Although our relationship is not perfect, we also commit mistakes and often hurt each other. There is even a time i remembered when we have this little fight way back high school. I think that is during our Filipino subject. We're told to draw something on a bondpaper and since this guy is sitting behind me so when I look at his drawing, I point out a scarecrow. And that isn't supposedly a scarecrow but I guess it is a magsasaka or I don't know. Until now pala-isipan pa rin sa akin ang bagay na iyon. But nevertheless, everything was settled back then.

    After entering college, we literally part ways. We went to our respective universities and colleges. Our only means of communication is through cellphone and facebook. But I guess it is facebook because we rarely text. It's either we dont have load, we dont have the time, we are both busy with school works and school activities or we are busy meddling with our respective lives. Everything really change.

    Gone with the old me and him... everything did change for the better. We learned to take responsibility, especially this guy. He even became the school's governer (O_o) so proud of him. And then, he even experienced having a girlfriend!!! But the relationship didn't last because this special guy of mine know who will be the best person whom he wants to be with forever. eheheh...

    After four years in college, he found work and I went to other school to take another degree. But then, the constant communication was not gone. We texts and even hang out.... SM, Gaisano Mactan, Gaisano grandmall, in Jerlyn's house, or in my house with me, him, Aiza and of course Jerlyn. And of course our beloved mommy Aila who have no baby Nate, our inaanak... yep, we already have our inaanak and I'm proud to say that we are still in group. That's how strong our friendship is.

    Back to this special guy,.. he will celebrate his 22nd birthday this coming November seven. I dont know if I can post this blog before that date but I guess since I am busy doing nothing... playing tetris and reading manga, it might be impossible for me to post on that date. So, as birthday gift... I am poor this is the only thing i can offer.... :') I made this blog entry for him to reminisce our past together... hahahaha....

    To the sweetest person I knew,... Happy birthday Lee Yong An slash Leo Esmalin. You may have the best years ahead of you. Age does increase but everything is settled in our mindset. Remember, we will always be forever 21.

    Thank you very much for the time. For all the libres. For listening to my nonsense hinanaing in my life. For listening to my secrets na hindi naman talaga secret. For being a good friend...

    Ang dami mong role sa buhay ko. If I can only grant one wish, If only I have the power. You already know what will I do to make you have and complete.

    Happy Birthday and I wish you all the best in life!!! Mwahhhh!!!

   

A poem for Makoi

Touch of an Angel

Across the room of dim light

I saw a small glint of light so bright

And then it was revealed

An angel's glow waiting ahead

Everyone has a secret to keep

Everyone has the right to weep

An angel isn't an exemption to it

Tears, pain, sorrows and anger to eat

No one to lean on tonight

She... herself, alone... she might

Despairs inside her heart

Waiting for someone to break it apart

But when shooting stars came her way

God bless the angel not just for a day

A forever bliss of flowers to stay

A group of people she can say hurray!

And now her wings are finally back

With happiness and memories intact

In the mind of the bees she had touch

The hand of a loving mother had hatch.

~~ Another Moment to Remember~~

THINGS happen for a reason. It is like meeting with faith, everything has a purpose and even a simple mistake may lead anyone to the right path to whom they are destined to. As an introverted person I prefer sitting alone and make my own world. Meeting new people away from my family... as in alone is like going to a war without weapons. Scary but somehow it encourages me to be more independent and to be me. There were a lot of pretensions at first. Cute smile and amazing doings just to gain the trust of many. But as days and weeks passes by we begun to act according to what we usually do. We began to be open to our feelings and our true personality really showed up which makes things more realistic. Admit it, it is like we are living "PBB", only we are given the privilege to go out and go to school.

Studying again after graduation is a tough decision. There are a lot of things that I need to considered including my family and health circumstances. However, my will power to make a change for myself indeed won at the end. So, that is the reason why I am here right now and meet these people. They are my roommates and they are one of the few who had seen the real me inside and out.

We are not perfect and had done a little misunderstandings but somehow we managed to fixed it all. We are all matured and childish at the same time. Funny isn't it... It has been almost five months living and learning together with them. The time to bid goodbye is getting near, but I know even if we are miles apart we will still remember each others company.

Thanks for the time and bonding!!!

Farewell... I mean see u soon GUMAMELIANS!!!

I want to fall in love for real -- again-- as in one more time

It is really hard to be write stories yet you don't know if the feelings are for real or just for a show.


It has been years since I totally forgot the person whom my heart chosen to be its first love. I met someone recently, I was totally hooked into him because he is too kind and sincere plus he is also good looking. But what attracts me most is his intelligence. Cute and smart people (girl or boy) is my weakness, no question asked.

But unfortunately it wasn't love at all but an infatuation. Sad right? He is looking for someone and that's not me. I don't know if my heart hurts or just my ego. I don't know, it's the second time in my entire existence that I've shown interest to someone.


I want to fall in love once again it doesn't matter if it's an unrequited love. I don't even care if he doesn't like me back as long as he allows me to fall for him. I won't do things that he won't like. Watching him from a far is enough for me. I just want to feel the feeling once more.

I can feel this emptiness inside me. If ever I fall in love again, I will make sure to treasure the feeling. If I can save it in the USB, I will do it for sure. I want to experiencing the heart thumping and the butterflies in my tummy every time I am facing with him. I want to know the feeling of sitting beside him or as I look into his face. If it is possible to be love back, it would be nice but not really hoping. I also want to feel jealousy, I want to know how will I react. Although, I am afraid of pain. I still want to feel it (preparing myself ahead of time because I know my love won't be reciprocated). The flowing of the tears from my eyes.

Yeah, I am just crazy. Don't mind me. I am just writing something here to ease my boredom and release some burden over my shoulders.