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Friday, November 9, 2012

For A Special Guy Like You-- HBTY



                                      "For The Birthday Boy Who Never Forget"

                      There's a saying that goes,
              you will never know who will                   
                  become your friends.
    Yes, I do believe in that. Who'd have thought that I will gain one of the best person one can ever have? I do have a lot of friends, some of them just come and go while others stay. And for me to have this special guy. It is really a blessing. Yep, he is a very special guy. He is unique, smart and strong... a real brave heart.

    When I first met him, in my eyes he is a shy boy. The first person who introduced me to him is our Filipino teacher Mrs. Sauro. We are inside the school's biology laboratory, not because we are having science activities or so. We are occupying the room for the school journalism writing contest. Yes, me and my kambal Ann Mae were forced to join the contest too. This guy and me were not classmates. We are in the same grade level, but he is in section A. The class for the fast learners. I belong to the other lower section back then.

    We often met out side the classroom but I can't remember if we were actually talking back then. We are considered as acquintances during that time. Not until I was transferred to Section A during my third year in high school. We became classmates. And not just classmates, we became friends. Then, I've just realize that this shy boy I used to know is not really that shy when it comes to friends. He laughs at silly jokes, he is really smart, he is someone whom you can asked help with. In short, he is really versatile.

    He is the first person aside off course from my kambal whom I've opened my first crush and love... hahaha, he knows everything. I can't hide from him. I can consider this guy as my guy bestfriend. You can tell him your problems and he will help you sort it out.

    He is someone you can really jam with. He knows about animes, this is our best topic before. Although our relationship is not perfect, we also commit mistakes and often hurt each other. There is even a time i remembered when we have this little fight way back high school. I think that is during our Filipino subject. We're told to draw something on a bondpaper and since this guy is sitting behind me so when I look at his drawing, I point out a scarecrow. And that isn't supposedly a scarecrow but I guess it is a magsasaka or I don't know. Until now pala-isipan pa rin sa akin ang bagay na iyon. But nevertheless, everything was settled back then.

    After entering college, we literally part ways. We went to our respective universities and colleges. Our only means of communication is through cellphone and facebook. But I guess it is facebook because we rarely text. It's either we dont have load, we dont have the time, we are both busy with school works and school activities or we are busy meddling with our respective lives. Everything really change.

    Gone with the old me and him... everything did change for the better. We learned to take responsibility, especially this guy. He even became the school's governer (O_o) so proud of him. And then, he even experienced having a girlfriend!!! But the relationship didn't last because this special guy of mine know who will be the best person whom he wants to be with forever. eheheh...

    After four years in college, he found work and I went to other school to take another degree. But then, the constant communication was not gone. We texts and even hang out.... SM, Gaisano Mactan, Gaisano grandmall, in Jerlyn's house, or in my house with me, him, Aiza and of course Jerlyn. And of course our beloved mommy Aila who have no baby Nate, our inaanak... yep, we already have our inaanak and I'm proud to say that we are still in group. That's how strong our friendship is.

    Back to this special guy,.. he will celebrate his 22nd birthday this coming November seven. I dont know if I can post this blog before that date but I guess since I am busy doing nothing... playing tetris and reading manga, it might be impossible for me to post on that date. So, as birthday gift... I am poor this is the only thing i can offer.... :') I made this blog entry for him to reminisce our past together... hahahaha....

    To the sweetest person I knew,... Happy birthday Lee Yong An slash Leo Esmalin. You may have the best years ahead of you. Age does increase but everything is settled in our mindset. Remember, we will always be forever 21.

    Thank you very much for the time. For all the libres. For listening to my nonsense hinanaing in my life. For listening to my secrets na hindi naman talaga secret. For being a good friend...

    Ang dami mong role sa buhay ko. If I can only grant one wish, If only I have the power. You already know what will I do to make you have and complete.

    Happy Birthday and I wish you all the best in life!!! Mwahhhh!!!

   

Monday, March 26, 2012

A poem for Makoi


Touch of an Angel

Across the room of dim light
I saw a small glint of light so bright
And then it was revealed
An angel's glow waiting ahead

Everyone has a secret to keep
Everyone has the right to weep
An angel isn't an exemption to it
Tears, pain, sorrows and anger to eat

No one to lean on tonight
She... herself, alone... she might
Despairs inside her heart
Waiting for someone to break it apart

But when shooting stars came her way
God bless the angel not just for a day
A forever bliss of flowers to stay
A group of people she can say hurray!

And now her wings are finally back
With happiness and memories intact
In the mind of the bees she had touch
The hand of a loving mother had hatch.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

~~ Another Moment to Remember~~


THINGS happen for a reason. It is like meeting with faith, everything has a purpose and even a simple mistake may lead anyone to the right path to whom they are destined to. As an introverted person I prefer sitting alone and make my own world. Meeting new people away from my family... as in alone is like going to a war without weapons. Scary but somehow it encourages me to be more independent and to be me. There were a lot of pretensions at first. Cute smile and amazing doings just to gain the trust of many. But as days and weeks passes by we begun to act according to what we usually do. We began to be open to our feelings and our true personality really showed up which makes things more realistic. Admit it, it is like we are living "PBB", only we are given the privilege to go out and go to school.


Studying again after graduation is a tough decision. There are a lot of things that I need to considered including my family and health circumstances. However, my will power to make a change for myself indeed won at the end. So, that is the reason why I am here right now and meet these people. They are my roommates and they are one of the few who had seen the real me inside and out.

We are not perfect and had done a little misunderstandings but somehow we managed to fixed it all. We are all matured and childish at the same time. Funny isn't it... It has been almost five months living and learning together with them. The time to bid goodbye is getting near, but I know even if we are miles apart we will still remember each others company.

Thanks for the time and bonding!!!
Farewell... I mean see u soon GUMAMELIANS!!!

I want to fall in love for real -- again-- as in one more time

It is really hard to be write stories yet you don't know if the feelings are for real or just for a show.


It has been years since I totally forgot the person whom my heart chosen to be its first love. I met someone recently, I was totally hooked into him because he is too kind and sincere plus he is also good looking. But what attracts me most is his intelligence. Cute and smart people (girl or boy) is my weakness, no question asked.

But unfortunately it wasn't love at all but an infatuation. Sad right? He is looking for someone and that's not me. I don't know if my heart hurts or just my ego. I don't know, it's the second time in my entire existence that I've shown interest to someone.


I want to fall in love once again it doesn't matter if it's an unrequited love. I don't even care if he doesn't like me back as long as he allows me to fall for him. I won't do things that he won't like. Watching him from a far is enough for me. I just want to feel the feeling once more.

I can feel this emptiness inside me. If ever I fall in love again, I will make sure to treasure the feeling. If I can save it in the USB, I will do it for sure. I want to experiencing the heart thumping and the butterflies in my tummy every time I am facing with him. I want to know the feeling of sitting beside him or as I look into his face. If it is possible to be love back, it would be nice but not really hoping. I also want to feel jealousy, I want to know how will I react. Although, I am afraid of pain. I still want to feel it (preparing myself ahead of time because I know my love won't be reciprocated). The flowing of the tears from my eyes.

Yeah, I am just crazy. Don't mind me. I am just writing something here to ease my boredom and release some burden over my shoulders.

Friday, November 18, 2011

New Milestone!!!

Ahoyyy!!!

It has been a long time ever since I wrote something here in my blog. These past few months make me so busy... well, you know reading manga and such is one of my hobbies that keeps myself distracted from the reality of the outside world.

As you know I am a BS Biology graduate who graduated last March 2011 just this year. I can't say that the first quarter of my year is good. There are a lot of hang ups and disappointments that keeps me isolated for months. I keep myself busy and occupied so that I won't remember the mistakes I did in the past that makes me worry.

But that was centuries ago... hahaha.... time passes quickly and unknowingly September 25, 2011 is quite trembling. Why? It is because it is the time when I should take my LET exam. You might be wondering how can a BS Bio graduate can take the exam? It is because in Cebu Normal University most of their courses and majors have education electives. It means we have to take these education subjects as prescribed in our curriculum whether we like it or not. And since we did so we are able to take the board.

Too bad for me since I didn't do any intensive review at all. I don't even know what to do and what will happen. What I had is a cheap LET reviewer the orange one from I can't remember the name of the publishing company anymore since I disregarded it a long time ago. And some notes I photocopied from my friends who attended the review in school. I didn't even managed to check the photocopied notes ^_^.

And there... the time come to meet the hell in disguise. God! The first set of test isn't that hard and not too wrong. There are a lot of Filipino subject on it few math, and there is science and all since it is the Gen. Ed area. I thought I have answered half of the questions correctly but not so sure if they are really right. I even passed my paper first than my other testmates.

And then followed by the professional education subject. Hell!!! I don't even know where those questions came from. I didn't read any of those and can't even find similar questions from the reviewer I am using as a guide. It was a tough ride and I did finished answering quickly since I can't change my answers anymore because I don't have anything to change to begin with. What was in my mind is the word 'bahala na wala bitaw ko mag-review so okay ra if I fail". That was my defense mechanism to ease my guilt.

The last part is the specialization. I really thought that the test was hard because that was what other told me to. But thanks God I am a pure BS Biology major so the specialization part is quite easy but not that easy. There are few that I can't understand fully but when I come to think of it, If I really did the review I am pretty confident that I can answer those questions well.

Most of my friends and classmates were so excited about the upcoming result and that includes me. Somehow the excitement I felt was replaced when I entered Visayas State University also known as Leyte State University by many and most people by VISCA. I pursued my ultimate dream and that is to become a Veterinarian. They have a lot of top vet graduates there and the tuition fee is much cheaper too.

The school is composed of two campuses facing each other. The lower and the upper campus. The lower campus is composed of faculty housing, dormitories, cottages, apartments and the hospital. On the upper campus is the school campus, buildings, laboratories, departments and dormitories. It is a nice school that offers high quality education in cheaper tuition. But nothing can compare my Alma matter which is the Cebu Normal University, the very first institution that gave me the knowledge that I need and the pride that I can call mine.

As of the present I am a second year student taking up Doctors of Veterinary Medicine and a proud one. So, far I am doing good.



And last November 17, my cottage adviser Miss Emily Lagumbay who graduated the same time as me told me that the result is already out. I am in the verged of dying at that night because I haven't take my breakfast, lunch and dinner when she told me that making me more hungry and depressed for no particular reason. Maybe because I forgot about it and knowing that there is a possibility of me failing and the humiliation is at stake makes me so nervous that I am even afraid to ask my classmates about it.

Me and Cora together with Carl, the president from the Narra Dormitory walks toward the upper campus because of a meeting. We are talking about it when Rosalie texted me and congratulated me, meur, Web and the other guys who passes the board. I am so glad and happy and nervous. I felt like I am above the clouds and there are butterflies flying around my stomach as if I am in love. I forgot the feeling of being in love so just don't mind it.

Using my mobile phone I accessed my facebook account and I've read greetings from friends and classmates just making my heart pound ten times. I wanted to call my mother but I need to confirm it with my own two eyes but when we got home the internet cafe is already close. I need to wait a night just to see it.

Friday morning, I rushed out from DLABS to the lower campus to use the internet and to check the results. I am in middle of locating my name when my mother called and ask me about the result. And there, with my two own eyes I saw my name 4962 ESPINA, NONAH MAE TAMALA in the list of passers.

It makes me teary eyed because it is really a big achievement for me... for someone who didn't do enough review at all!!! But my happiness is somehow half-hearten because some of my friends didn't passed. But I know they are strong, they will somehow overcome the failure and will surely prepare for the April's exam for retakes.

I know and I believe they will pass for sure since my friends are strong and smart. They have all my support and all.

As for my next voyage??? I will put it all here... I still have to conquer the NVAT examination this April so that I will be in the vet med proper next year.... Good luck to me!

Friday, August 26, 2011

Thursday, March 24, 2011

It's my day!


It's really my day. Last March 22, 2011 I just made it that far. I finally graduated.

BS BIOLOGY is not a pretty ordinary major. Although others may refer it as a pre-med course but for us Biology majors it's a lifetime commitment. We devoted our time in studying chapters and chapters from books. Our professor Mr. Jay P. Picardal is someone you will really hate at first. Hahahaha,... it's really funny for a student to really hate someone who provided her knowledge. But I am very thankful to him, dahil kung hindi dahil sa kanya malamang hindi ako na-challenge and finally live up to this far. Because of him i finally felt how it is to be a BS BIOLOGY student, he forced us and it was really brain cracking. At the very end what i did see are rainbows of success...

After this, I'll proceed another step of my life.... and that's to face my dream course... Doctor of Veterinary Medicine...

Wish this hopeful's success, folks!!!!